New feeling...

Dearest blog,

After laying on the couch with Adam last night and being so close, I began to notice myself smiling for no reason at all. Looking up at Adam, we make eye contact and his eyes seem to light up like I feel mine do. Laying my head on his chest and hearing his heart beat that calms me. Feeling the warmth and security of him as he holds me close at that moment I was able to ascertain that I am happy. Physically, mentally, and emotionally happy.

Now blog, I'm not trying to be cloying or trying to rub it in anyone's face. I'm just trying to let you know  that it's been a hell of a long time since I've felt this way. It's just not the fact that I feel happy, but the fact that I feel happy AND safe. Not many people would guess it, but safety is a huge thing for me in relationships whether it's romantic or just friends. Which is another thing between Adam and I, we're not just dating each other, but we're friends too. It's absolutely wonderful to know you have not just someone that loves you but a best friend that loves to have you by their side and wants you to be in every part of their life. I love the way we are, how we live, how we talk, how we may argue, how we just sit around talking but not really saying anything. I just love the boy.

I don't know if you guys know this, but it's a wonderful feeling to hug someone and you just know you have the entire world right there in your arms. There's nothing like it. But see, there's nothing or no one like him.